Hey lovelies. I haven’t been really active lately, and I do apologize. I’ve been queueing things up and I don’t know if that good enough anymore. I feel bad, yes, but then I think to myself, ‘Why do i have to feel bad about not being active?’ and I just think it’s because I just don’t know if I’m enjoying this blog anymore. It’s been an amazing year of having this blog and I absolutely love all the friends and memories this blog of the boys has given me. But I’ve been feeling quite bored of this blog, tbh. I don’t feel that exciting feeling in my gut and stomach and heart as I used to when I first made this blog. I mean I do love this blog so much, don’t get me wrong, but maybe I need a hiatus from it. I’m too attached to this blog to either delete it permanently or to just forget about it and leave it like some useless thing. I’ve been having some problems of my own (and yes I know before you judge and be all ‘oh she has ‘problems’ whatever shut up) and it’s been taking a bit of myself lately. I’ve been having some challenges within myself and I just need to try and sort myself out. I’m also in college and I actually want to do my very best and maybe get into their honors or presidential list. I’d hate to damper that with the thought of wanting to keep reminding myself that I have to go on this blog and reblog and be all active and whatnot. I have until December (which is like the end of the semester actually) to make sure I get good grades so that I can try to be in the Honors or Presidential list. Another thing is that I don’t have a personal laptop and as you know I did like making edits or the boys and gifs and some odd graphics as well, and with this desktop i’m using at the moment doesn’t suffice because it’s so slow and I can’t get photoshop on it. Photoshop was what got me going on this blog as well. I loved making things and now I just feel deprived and I don’t feel like I’m putting this blog to use without them. (I know I’m sorry it’s a dumb reason but it’s my reason.)
I guess what i’m trying to say is that I’m going to get off this blog for a bit. I just need time to think and get myself alright with life and just some time to breathe. I’m not sure when I’ll be back or if I’ll be queueing from time to time or if i’ll be posting once in a while just because I feel like it. I just need to do something for myself and this is why I’m doing this. So if you’re still reading this, I love you very much and this really isn’t the last of me.
If anything, you can follow me on twitter: @wheeljays or @matrxgacutan
I love you all so much ❤